I never actually realized

how much the movie "Rent" impacted my love for music. The lyrics to all the songs made me actually listen to the lyrics in the garbage music that played on the radio, when I didn't realize how dirty and stupid the lyrics are. The songs have a great tune and instrumentals and the lyrics make a lot of sense. I know it's a musical, but still. Listening to all the songs again make me go back to when I first watched the movie. In Lake Tahoe with my sisters in the living room of the hotel suite. I was on the couchbedthingy and my sisters were in their separate chairs. I remember when Angel died in the story and I was hiding my tears from my sisters to show that I wasn't a pussy and that I was "hella hard". It's amazing how stupid I was back in 7th and 8th grade. I remember how I stole the Soundtrack from my sister and listening to it nonstop. I still have the cd and I don't think my sister knows. Haha. I miss that movie. I will now illegally download it onto my computer.

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WHOO. I'M HAPPY. TIM AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON ME.


When I first saw you
I thought you was hella cute
You had the smile and the face
So I thought I could pursuit
You.
But I didn’t cause
You wouldn’t let me get it
And you were with this dude
So I decided not to hit it
You were kissing here and there
He was playing with your hair
I couldn’t do anything,
except to growl like bear
Not because of you,
but inside my own frustration
In my head, I couldn’t hear my own narration
You stopped my focus
And became my addiction
I couldn’t think because you
Broke my concentration
I’ve never been in
This type of situation
I didn’t realize that it was
Just Infatuation
I thought I was being a jerk
Like I was a new boy
I tried being nice
But that was a killjoy
I tried backing off
I know now that that’s wrong
After 6 months
We still don’t even get along

Almost a year passed
And we in 2 of the same class
And you’re staring at me
Like I was being a jackass
Gets me mad
Makes me wanna beat you down
Like a drummer
But I can’t cause
You were one that wasn’t like the others
You actually made me happy
In a special kind of way
When I saw you
You knew it always made my day
I get feelings
But I fight it like Cassius Clay
Telling myself that
You don’t really want me anyways
And it hurts inside
But I still won’t cry
Because you wouldn’t cry,
Even if I died
I cared for you a lot
I wanted love in return
But in fact, you’re just another
Picture to burn
Am I intimidating you?
You’d better be glad
Because I’m not even close to being
Halfway mad
Still can’t believe that
You were second to none
Next time, I’ll think twice before
I think I found the one

Everybody's Nobody - XV

"Day to day I stay awake, writing just to please the crowd, yelling through a megaphone that doesn't make a sound. The homies say enjoy the ride, take your time, once you probably make it to the top, the only place to go is down. I see my life conversions from the person in the stands, so when I'm higher than the ceiling I'm still down with my fans. Home is where the heart is so I'll never have to search, but now that everybody's fly, nobody's down to earth. And everybody twitters, and everybody blogs. But nobody's saying shit, they just copy, paste, reblog, just like one person's opinion becomes everybody's thoughts. When the blind leaves the blind, everybody just gets lost."

Fuck my neighbors.

Just because you have a dumbass baby who can't sleep, don't blame that shit on us. We're a naturally loud family. Silence is not an option with us. Especially me. People wonder why I'm always touching things and making sounds with them. That's because I can't live with silence. I hate silence like it's the devil. If you people can't live with the fact that I always have to hear something, then leave. I don't need your shit. Don't think that my love for music and random sounds are flaws. And trying to force me to turn my shit off is unacceptable. If I can't hear my music when I'm in my own room, what makes me believe that you can hear it when you're a fucking house away? I feel sorry for that damn baby. Not because he can't sleep, but because he has two faggyass parents.

Haven't posted on here.

I shall post random facts now.

-I like food.
-I think Musiq Soulchild is everything an R&B singer should be.
-I don't like cocky people.
-The most amazing line I heard in a rap song is:
"Since everybody's fly, nobody's ever down to earth." By XV in Everybody's Nobody.
-Chris Rock is the funniest black comedian ever.
-I still enjoy playing pokemon.
-I am broke.
-I do not enjoy exerting energy.
-I try to spoil my loved ones, but I just can't.
-I bet you only Connie Tran is reading this right now unless I post this on my Tumblr.
-I don't like 3/4 of my cousins from my Dad's side.
-I <3 my Stockton Family.
-I suck at first impressions.
-Whenever I enter the bathroom at home, the first thing I do is take a big whiff at the smell to make sure no one took a shit before I go in.
-I like to piss people off.
-It's fun to tYp lIk DiiS.
-I like hats.
-I like to watch Run's House even tho 5/7 of the family members piss me off.
-I love dogs.