I used to have these weird fucked up dreams where my closest friends are in a tragedy of some sort and sometimes die. I'd wake up crying at 4am in the morning not being able to fall back asleep. One of last times I had one of these dreams was in 7th grade. Watching Up with my family made me remember all the times that you and I had together like actually watching the movie, just us together. And we'd talk about things that we planned on doing, but never actually got to do. Like how Carl and Ellie did, just without the whole romantic marriage shit. How does this relate to my fucked up dreams? Two nights ago, I had a dream that you died in a car accident. I woke up at 5am crying my eyes out because it felt so real. I remember the dream in vivid detail.
It was in July after we graduated. We were just driving to the movies, you driving and me in the passenger seat. Just you and I and we were gonna pick up Stephanie. And there was a bus hijacked from behind us on the way towards Eden Shores next to the built Costco. It hit us right behind us and I got knocked out. I woke up in the hospital with Rikki and Stephanie sitting next to me. I automatically asked what happened. They hesitated and I knew that something was wrong automatically, so I started crying. They told me that your airbag didn't deploy and you hit your head through the windshield. The bus used the back of the car of the ramp, so it got on top crushing us both. I made it out with both my legs broken and my back broken. You didn't come out at all. Then the three of us just started crying hysterically. Then I woke up with my blanket almost soaked. It felt so real.
I know it might not be easy for you to read this, but I wanted you to know that I love you so much Connie, you don't even know. You're my best friend and I never want you to leave my life. I really don't know what else to say. I miss you. I love you.
PS: You're coming over on Saturday with everyone no matter what you say.
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Omg you're bout to make me cry fool. =( That seems like such a scary ass and realistic dream.... and the fact that you cried just makes me feel warm inside. I mean no I'm not happy you cried, but I'm happy I mean that much to you that would cry like that. I love you, you're my best guy friend. I know you won't turn against me, I know you'll be there when I need you, I know I can tell you things when I want to or don't want to. You are my only best guy friend because you do all of the above.
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