I like to put on a regular smiling face when I'm hurt. I don't like people to worry or to ask what's wrong with me. I'm starting to look at the brighter things in life. I'm trying my best to stay positive in this current situation I'm in. I'm not taking this lightly, but I'm not taking this too seriously. This shit I'm dealing with is life or death, and I'm talking about it like it's no big deal. I may not be here in the next 5 years or so and I'm trying to fix that. I'm gonna live till I'm 90. Mark my words, I will live through this. I want to. I have to.