Today was the day.

The day I've been dreading for almost 3 months now, the last day of my Junior year. Yeah, it may sound like I was getting worried for no reason but you don't get it. This was the day that one of my best friends became an official alumni of Mt. Eden High School. I'm proud of her, forreal. I remember her complaining to me about doing homework and how she stayed up in the wee hours of the night studying. All her work paid off and I'm super proud of her.

This is when my selfishness kicks in. I didn't want her to leave. I wasn't ready to not see her everyday anymore. Wasn't ready to not talk to her everyday anymore. To be honest, I still don't think I'm ready. She surprised me today in Japanese. I read the note that she gave me. When I started reading it, I was already tearing up, but holding it in. When I got to the last paragraph, with the thank you's, I couldn't hold it in anymore. Once a tear dropped, it couldn't be stopped. I finished reading and went up to her. I hugged her for the longest time, I didn't want to let go. I'm afraid of letting go, afraid that if I let go, things will be gone forever. I didn't want that to happen, not now, not ever. But I couldn't hold on forever. I had to let go and I had to bring myself up. As I let go from the hug, more tears came. They kept on coming for about 5 minutes and I was strong enough to stay standing. I knew from this point that I was strong enough to be let off on my own. (LOL, it sounds like I'm moving out of my parent's house or something.) I was strong enough to let go and have faith in our friendship. Of course it's not going to be the same at school anymore, but I'm confident in myself that I can handle the changes and take them head on. I'm proud of myself for surviving this dreaded day, but I'm more proud of you, Sheena Carbonell Franco. Btw, you still have your sweater at my house.